I really don't know what it is that I'm doing wrong lately. As if we haven't had enough drama..this morning my van wouldn't start and I'd kept Jye home for the day to get his arm re-plastered as the plaster is as loose as anything. Needless to say I had to get a lift to Michaels work to pick his car up and Jye didn't even look like getting near a doctor.
It's the little things like this that keep happening that really send you in a downward spiral..like a continuous kick in the ass. Just when your mood starts to life after the last drama..something else comes along to kick you right in the face again. Just when you're thinking it can only get better..it doesn't.
I really hate when my life goes through these stages. It just seems to happen to us more often than not and the bad really tends to outweigh the good most of the time.
I'm a worrier to start with and don't need the extra shit to go with it. I find I really withdraw into myself and avoid people like the plague. I still obviously have to deal with people and put 'the smile' on..but it's like I retreat so far into myself and I'm just 'existing' in this mad world of ours.
I have to go to indoor tonight with the boys and the place will be packed. Usually I look forward to Friday nights at the indoor centre but I'm really dreading tonight. I'm just not in the mood for small talk with people.
Hopefully they'll leave me alone.